To-Do: Find Happy At Work (Part II)

After coming home from New Mexico, I knew that I needed to buckle down and get some serious work done.  The only problem is that I still didn't fully understand my job to the extent that I needed to, and my support system was virtually gone.  

My co-workers that were there to pump me up had all left the company, so I was left to fend for myself, like the proverbial fish out of water.

I tried to lean on Boss Man for as much help as I could, but really, nobody can teach you to be a great Loan Officer.  It comes with experience and I didn't have time to get the experience I needed.  The mortgage market was saturated with refinances, but purchases is where the money was.  I had utilized my resources here in town, but nobody was buyin' what I was sellin'.  

I worked as many leads as possible until I finally just gave up.  I quit.  I couldn't be put under that stress for any longer.  I tried to stay afloat as long as possible, but nothing was working out for me.  I locked as many loans as I could, and inevitably they would fall through.

The beginning of September rolled around and Boss Man sat me down.  It's either resign, get fired or shit out a miracle.  I pushed again, trying to get that "second wind" avid runners talk about.  I was doing everything I was supposed to, but becoming more and more frustrated at every turn.

I finally went to Boss Man and told him that my last day would be September 30th.  After that, I would look for a job.  Something closer to home, without a 130 mile round trip commute.

On Friday, September 30th, I drove to Austin and dropped my computer off at the office and said goodbye to the people that were there.  I was sad to leave the company because it really was a great place to work, but at the same time, I felt such a sense of relief.  No more waking up in a bad mood only to sit in front of a computer and stare blankly at the screen, waiting for a miracle to fall from the sky.

But wait.  Now I'm jobless.  FUNemployed.  No gotty no yob.  Shit.  SHit.  SHIT!

What the hell was I thinking?  

...to be continued...